Why Didn't You Come To My Rescue....

GOD I am sorry to ask you so please don't be angry with me
Why do you never come to my rescue until someone has made
a mess of me or I have made a mess of things? Because I lack understanding
it seems that you do more ignoring me than loving me.
I can not come up to you but you can come  up to me. When my stepfather was
damaging us why did you ignore us? Why as child did you not protect or defend me.
From the first moment I heard about you I believed that you were real; I believed
that you had given David the strength to be Goliath and that you had shut the mouths
of Lions for Daniel. You sounded like the GOD for me the one that defends his people,
but that's not what I found when I was growing up. You had favorites favorite people,
favorite families, favorite nations, favorite colors and the rest of us should be grateful
for the crumbs.