Will it Ever Come Again?

by Nathaniel Akers
April 27 2019

a  I've come to this place called lonely,
b  hoping  my heart will survive this conquest.
a  This is not what is meant by the 'one and only',
b  getting older as I feel that I regress.
c  If loneliness was a bear I am being mauled,
c  fighting back but my courage has been stalled

a  I can not say it's not my fault
b  I needed fire to test my pure gold
a  Since flavor can never return to the salt
b  there's no promise of wisdom when your old.
c  Pressure mounts from this constant assault
c  If the devil had his way he'd bring me to a screeching halt

a  My brain keeps my thoughts always hurting
b  the result of a mind that is confused
a  My life is becoming so disconcerting
b  because my comfortable got use to being abused.
c  These lies keep drowning out my truth
c  retarding everything that the spirit grew.

a   My rain clouds are thunderstorms of sorrows,
b   instead of gone they always seem to come back.
a  My todays are destroying my tomorrows
b  because today unleashes it's full attack
c  Yet my soul still fights though it's in pain
c  whatever lost, will it ever come again?

HELP ME BE STRONG AGAIN....

HELP ME BE STRONG AGAIN....

 

Psalm 40:12
 David talks about being afraid--his troubles multiplying--feeling like his sins had caught up with him. Sin kills the blessed assurance with regret, because of a guilty past that won't let you forget, nor will it let you go free Every chance it tries to remind you of the time that you screwed it up. Don't allow your disappointment with self become a paralyzing fear.  Your courage was once brazen and bold, now it 'tippy toes'--instead of walking with your head up, you walk with your head down, eyes toward the ground telling the world that you are defeated. And your disappearing courage is a example of your will' being broken.
But Jesus' indwelling Holy Spirit is a helper in times of trouble and a restorer to those that have gotten lost. 911 to GOD is a result of losing the presence of GOD's divine power, with the exception of JESUS, that is always due to our sin consciousness (running from GOD) adding to it our guilty mind that attempts to avoid "all thoughts GOD" which make weak and unsure steps. We are more confident in life when we are obedient to GOD. A Spirit that is Holy and alive is a man with his head up, shoulders back and bouncing on his toes. David said, Psalms 18:29 ...by thee I have run through a troop or leaped over a wall... his confidence was in the relationship he had with GOD, feeling like he could accomplish anything. GOD is our confidence. Jehovah Nissi describes that confidence as 'GOD is our banner'...What is a banner? it is  object of unity; GOD is where we unify, what we have in common; what is left when all else fails. Banners give hope for those in battle, increase determination to those fighting. Reminding those that are in a fight for their lives that we are not fighting alone. it is a object of hope and is what' left standing when the victory has been won. He is our confidence. So David cries to GOD--- 'HELP ME, GOD' in the midst of his troubles, but the cry for help is not just for the change of circumstances it is for the courage to be strong again. Sin destroys confidence and lowers esteem, but only against those who feel they have disappointed GOD. Reading the Psalms we can be sure that David will be honest with GOD---- Help me, GOD and while you do that can you punish my enemies (the ones that defeated me, disgraced me, embarrassed me, confused me, even tried to kill me...stand me up, while you yank them down. To regain what trouble threatened and sin destroyed--faith in GOD and confidence in self. v.17 Keep me on your mind, GOD...Don't forget about me since I am poor and needy. Once again we see the desperate seeking GOD. Man's "HELP ME" becomes a battle cry for GOD to help him against his enemies. To elevate him above his circumstances. Past sins have left him weak and he need GOD to prop him up again.

Head up, shoulder back....faith. hope, and love stay in...Praise come out !!!!

                                          

                   

 

EXCITING LIES OR BORING TRUTH...

by El Nahtan DaSeer

Unless someone is performing magic tricks and doing something exciting we fail to believe in GOD and in them, or the ones that GOD has sent. Today we refuse to recognize truth without the miracles in real time. We want everything to be must see TV. And that spirit has been in the land for a long time. Fortunately or unfortunately so many people are in need of miracles that desperation has given way to at least believing in what we see--what the person at least does, even if we are not sure at first glance of who they are.

MUST SEE TV....

Jesus told the people in John chapter 4 that they won't believe unless they see something happening that was amazing something exciting something that would fascinate them; something that others can't do or that they can't do themselves. Verse 50 describes the people that need help believe sometimes more than the ones that can give the help. The account of the dying royal officials son in John 4:46-54 is the power of GOD's WORD to perform where he send it and to accomplish what he sent it to do. It is the demonstration of the word that didn't return unto Him void. And if it doesn't return unto him void then it fulfilled designed purpose and appointed time. IT GOES WHERE HE SENDS AND ACOMPLISHES WHAT HE INTENDS...at the very hour HE intends.

So while the high ranking official was rejoicing over the saving of his son. The LORD was now dealing with the people's minds that cared more about excitement than truth. Like a child that wants to see a magic show or must see reality shows that play to the peoples emotions and cater to the lust for the amazing or the impossible.  JESUS was trying to teach the people that belief starts with hearing the word of GOD and not seeing wonderful acts and exciting episodes that fascinate the mind and play into the false fantasy's of life, increasing ones imagination also increases their propensity for lies or untruths. For we live by every word that proceedeth from the mouth of GOD.
John 4:46-54 ..hearing with you heart and believing in your mind before seeing with your eyes. Faith comes not by sight...

AT WHAT TIME DID HE GET BETTER (at what time did you get better?)

As soon as JESUS said he (you) would and you believed in other words he got better YESTERDAY...the better you, began in your past and has worked it's way into your future. Sometimes you need that 'yesterday' blessing. Enjoying today what GOD had already prepared for us yesterday. Some blessings are not on the way to you, you are on the way to them. Times when others become so excited about what GOD HAS DONE FOR YOU that they come running to tell you before you have seen it for yourself. In fact, it's been waiting on you since yesterday; some will go and find the blessing at home, waiting since you left looking for it. Our todays, our future blessings based on GOD's past word. When yesterday has spoken into your today. JUST BECAUSE IT'S IS A OLD PROMISE DOESN'T MEANT THAT IT CAN'T BE A NEW MANIFESTATION...IT CAN BE THE FORMER AND THE LATTER RAIN. GOD only needs a womb of belief to put a seed of promise in to conceive a manifested truth. When you really want something accomplished in you life then you really need to improve you ability to hear GOD and do whatever he say's like Mary told them at the wedding feast when HE turned the water into a vintage Chablis.

When things seem like they are going ill and it is almost over. The situations is close to the grave and you are trying anything out of desperation, even willing to try JESUS. You are willing for GOD to have the final word. You would travel any distance and seek out whoever you think has the answer, you don't care about title, rank, you only care about cure. Knowing that GOD did it before you would ask or think so it would be ready when you need it the most, not knowing yet that you needed HIM the most. LORD, I need it now----it's been ready since yesterday about the same hour I spoke it.

TWO BELIEVES

The believe in verse 43 obviously does not have the same meaning as the 'believe' in verse 54.  The conjunctive adverb 'then' tells us what happen at this point, an  act has occurred here and it uses the word 'believe' again that is different from the use in verse 43 to express the relationship with the giver of the miracle and the ones or family that is receiving the miracle. The' believe' in verse 43 means to believe that he has been given the special power to perform miracles, no different than a witch doctor or a Egyptian priest. So  in  a Father's desperation he only came for the man that works miracles and really didn't fully grasp in whose presence he was really in. He cared mores about the power in his hand than the person whose hand possessed the power. But then the miracle opened up his heart and his family, the bible records that he and his family 'believed'---this time not just in the miracle and the power of the man that willed it, but in the miracle being done by someone that was more than a person that had the power to heal, he believed in the Messiah, JESUS as the SON OF GOD. So then a true encounter goes beyond what He has done to who He is. NOT ONLY AFTER THE  MIRACLE  BUT THE MIRACLE MAKER

I remember getting myself into a trouble that I almost got me carried away from here, unaware of the danger I was in until I heard a shout from heaven. SATAN! I know that sounds strange but I don't care what people think. when I tell you what I did next it ought to tell you if something really happened. I fell down on the concrete and wept until cars were stopping to see what was going on---I wasn't weeping because I was afraid, though I should have been, not because I was confused---I WAS WEEPING BECAUSE I HEARD THE VOICE OF GOD---YALL I TELL YOU I COULDN'T CATCH MY BREATHE....IN HIS VOICE WAS A INDESCRIBIBLE LOVE

Spiritual Desperation

Going the last mile for your child...a father going for help is a powerful demonstration of desperation. Anyone with children especially if they have been hurt or sick, there's is no where we wouldn't go an nothing we wouldn't do. But how about your spiritual baby that has been sick for  a long time? Would you let that child that GOD has impregnated you with die or would you seek the one that can cure anything; would you call on GOD even if you didn't fully understand who he was. You at least knew what he was capable of. Sometimes GOD has to wait for us to get physically desperate to speak  not just to our physical but also to our spiritual condition. Extreme despair makes one go after what is needed aggressively. Some of us have been too passive about our relationship and the influence GOD wants us to have. Some of us have needed spiritual 911 for a long time. This time a bandage want do...the wound has gotten so bad that it's leaking profusely.  GOD told Israel when they have left you for dead I am the only one that rescued you and made you desirable.

The Best of What You Have and the Best of Who You Are....

by El Nahtan DaSeer

GENESIS 4

Finding out what your good at, realizing who you are---whatever you produce GOD wants it first and GOD wants your best. Your sacrifices testifies as acts of worship your best declaring your heart is grateful. Yet, there are times in our lives when what we offer is unacceptable this is one of the reasons that JESUS had to die a sacrificial death because our sacrifices had not only become unacceptable they had become offensive to GOD.  In the book of Corinthians chapter 11 Paul deals with the church about unacceptable offerings hindering communion. Your offerings carry a spirit of obedience and gratitude or rebellion and defiance; often so many do things out of obligation, frustration; mad at GOD and mad at other men. GOD CLEARLY DOESNT WANT THAT!!!! That internal boiling becomes a murderous, angry spirit that results in GOD driving a person out of HIS presence, and the lost of favor. When you sometimes feel a cold shoulder from  heaven we might want to examine what you give and how you give it. The bible clearly states that GOD wants cheerful giver, a person that counts it a privilege to give back to the giver.

What We Offer is an Act of Worship...

What we offer tells a lot about our attitude of worship. Sacrifices and offerings are part of the worship experience. You can not call yourself a worshipper if you have trouble being obedient in your sacrifices and offerings. A selfish person can not worship GOD. Dereliction of Duty, abdication of responsibility, and ignoring divine command destroys your harvest, pull up every plant by it's roots and leaves your seeds as food for the birds of prey. Where their once was wheat their will now be weed, tares, and thorns. The bible clearly teaches us that a 'enemy' has done this, but you are the ENEMY of you own success. GOD WILL NEVER ACCEPT ANYTHING LESS THAN OUR BEST; NEVER CONFUSE GOD'S LONGSUFFERING PATIENCE WITH HIS NOT EVENTUALLY PUTTING YOUR FEET TO THE FIRE TO BE OBEDIENT.

Genesis 4 says that Cain was a farmer and the his brother Abel was a Shepherd. Together they had the land on lock, in other words together their was nothing that they would have lacked, except mutual respect it seems from Cain's perspective. One possessed the livestock the other the fruits and vegetables and the grapes for the wine. Are there times in your life when you lose focus on what you are doing to envy others? And that lack of focus on doing your best ultimately morphs into negative emotions and negative experience. Frustration replaces fruition as we examine GOD instead of our own selfish intentions and we falsely reason that GOD has showed someone else favoritism. 

When you find a man contending with GOD instead of obediently obeying he will take everything from you and even bury you; he is the ultimate murderer. Selfishness, jealousy, anger, frustration leads us from acts of worship to lust and vengeance. The heart and mind 'corrupted' longing for the wrong kind of acceptance, the kind that believes that can make GOD lower HIS standard for us. The kind that wants whatever we give to be enough.  WE ARE ALL REMINDED GOD'S WORLD GOD"S RULES!!!!
Today's English Version: v.7 If you had done the right thing you would be smiling right now...

Wrong choice makes unhappy lives. When you give your best your sacrifices become a acceptable act of worship that pleases GOD. And if you fail to get it right then sin will leap on you, attacking you, especially attacking your mind and then you will have to overcome it (fight for it) or it will devour you. Bad choices become a killing field or feeding ground for sin and rebellion. Finding ourselves without the thing we need, the relationships we have destroyed because we failed to do the right thing especially standing before GOD.

The Spirit of Rejection that so many carry....

When we apply the metaphysical to the CAIN mentality we find that it causes a change in attitude disappointment, turned to furious, and then to murder. He took a situation that was meant to be a blessing and turned it into a curse. Negative attitudes and emotions will derail or stop  the flow of blessings.. The mind that wants to offer what it wants and to do what it wants will always lead to it causing the flesh to break rank and go out against who it should be teaming with. It offers GOD les than it's best becoming irate at others frustrated they got it right. You would think that a farmer would be the  first to know that bad seed bad fruit, good seed good fruit---whatever you give is what you get.

May 2019

This lesson was given to me to eat before the sun arose in Pensacola on Thursday May 8th..I was battling with a deep depression because I felt like I had given a sacrifice that was not being honored. I falsely accused GOD of ignoring my sacrifice that I thought was substantial. How many people quit jobs and sit there waiting for GOD to talk to them everyday so they can record what the Spirit teaches. Yet, at the same time I had abandoned my commands and responsibilities against GOD and against my family. My acts of sacrifice and worship was unacceptable and GOD ministered that too me. OBEDIENCE IS BETTER THAN SACRIFICE, DON"T GIVE ME WHAT YOU WANT ME TO HAVE GIVE ME WHAT I TOLD YOU TO GIVE...that's when I found out that my acts of worship had been given without sacrifices and offerings, which means they was not worship at all. What the hell was I thinking and what the hell was I doing

There are time that you didn't have because you wouldn't give

The Youthful Servant.

by El Nahtan DaSeer

Most young people will come into this world with the ambitions, passions to find out who their greater self is. They want to navigate to the beautiful island called Utopia where there is no lack and they can buy whatever their hearts desire. But that place doesn't exist. They must find who they are and what they were designed to do. In there attempt to be someone in the world they will steadily drift away from GOD; falling away from their deep intimate relationship with the LORD.

Others will continues to aspire to the pentacle, or mountains of success, with each climb stripping their faith while they move closer and higher to the kingdoms of this world. Then one day they will awake to the sad spiritual fact that worldly success, physical growth and beauty is so unsatisfying so fleeting. SO UNIMPRESSIVE to GOD. The spiritually immature can't handle the loss of a child, the loss of a loved one, the call of GOD away from your job, homelessness, a bad marriage, a abusive spouse, diagnosed with cancer, foreclosure on your house, rejecting these worldly philosophies. The pain and confusion of the stripping and testing of your faith. A FIRE SELL when everything must go right before GOD throws you into the fires--for the purpose of purification. TOO MUCH DIRTY, FOUL attachments fused to you. When something had to be cleansed by the fire it's because the filth has penetrated and marred their beauty. The fiery trials are the ones that would kill people or causes them to kill themselves.

To measure how deep you are in the spirit you have to get out of the baby pool of the spirit, where someone can snatch you out, you can just walk out, or you can stand up....When you are diving deep you are hunted, tracked, everything and everyone is coming after you and still you keep your eye on JESUS. You refuse to move from the pain because that is where revelation is. Behind the bars, next to the ostracized, the outcast, the admitted failures, the shame, the disgrace, the heartache...they are amused by your plights and blame you for you own afflictions, assaults, attacks.

Excerpts after the LORD gave me my wings....
May. 5th 2019 I will never be the same
I can't explain it...

These are the words of ' FLAPPERIEL'

POWER WITHIN.....

John 14:15 And I will ask the Father and He will give you another comforter (counselor)  to be with you forever. He is the Spirit of Truth...He will remain with you and in you...

Christ in chapter 14 begins dealing with the disciples about the things that they must endure. Jesus didn't just tell us that things were going to happen he did something for us and in us so that we could  being to stand against the arrows that would fly by day and the noisome destruction of the darkness.

"With them"meaning you as a disciple do not have to fight these battles alone. The Holy Spirit is the counselor and the comforter that can help you in your time of need.

And in them is the promised Spirit of GOD that was prophesied by the prophet Joel, that the Spirit would come and usher in the time of visons and dreams, the power of GOD within man. He would know have greater in him than in the world.


The Spirit like reminding me of the things that I forget

1. Most people practice on dummies before they can save others

2. GOD will always send you the worst people to create the best you

3. If you keep getting rid of only your enemies pretty soon you will be left with one and that will be you, then what?

4. The Bible is one of the few mysteries that you know who don it from the beginning


The Vision of the Kicking Child
when a child falls down kicking and screaming , what do you do?
a. pick him up---and chances are that he will do this again
b. Whoop him ----risking the chance that he will withdraw
c. IGNORE HIM, until he gets up? This may make him change his tactic
NOW YOU SEE WHY THE LORD HAS NOT ANSWERED YOU YET...

The Spirit spoke to me about David when he returned to Ziklag (home at the time) and found everything destroyed, taken, and his family gone....

 In the midst of David's frustration he didn't realize that it was time to move, because while he was dealing with the situations at home Jonathan and Saul were being killed. Just because everything around you seems like it's falling apart, it is really the enemy throwing stuff around (having a temper tantrum) because GOD has promoted you. While the enemy has destroyed his home the situation in the battlefront was just as grim; yet at the same time death  and destruction was the pathway to the throne. Everyone wants to be known and do great things, WHAT PRICE ARE YOU WILLING TO PAY...because whether you get it from heaven you will give blood or from this world you will take blood, and most times both!
David got the throne by watching his mentor die and the only best friend he had in the world killed in a battle he was forbidden to fight (in other words finding out they died while he was on the sidelines). So while his closes comrades talked of stoning him, Saul was falling on his sword and the crown was rolling to the feet of David. Even ouch can be a sound of victory... blame, frustration, things falling apart is not the sound of defeat, but of growth. .
AND WHAT YOU HEAR OUT OF ME IS ONLY THE HOLY SPIRIT THAT GAVE ME MY WINGS OF REVELATION AFTER 22 YEARS...

May 5th, 2019 GOD took me in a vision and showed me Satan behind me while I got my wings, this is a not the person that you knew that's all I can sat right now...GOD HAS OPENED UP MY SPIRITUAL VISION, this is why I have been homeless for the last 14 years!!!!!

Very few times in scriptures do you read that David was knocked to his knees. Giants never did it, Kings didn't do it , kingdoms didn't do it...lions, or tigers, wolves, bears no of them did it. but I don't care how much anointing you have there is something crushing when those that are close to you, the ones that are family, and friends talk of killing you; blaming you for all that's happening to them and you.
Sometimes you want to fall apart, but everyone else is so you try to figure out how to get everyone out of this mess; you yourself are unable to grieve, or get angry, or get frustrated at the time. So the bible say' that DAVID got STRONGER IN THE LORD ( Draw nigh to me I will draw nigh to you) and draw close is what he did...even to the point that he went to ask GOD what is going on....but in his asking he also wanted to know if his plan would be approved, takin git straight to the top to GOD...IS IT WORTH GOING AFTER, SHOULD I PURSUE...I will only chase what you say is worth it...AND GOD TOLD HIM TO PLOT A COURSE STRIGHT TO "I NEED THAT BACK"
JUST BECASUE IT LEAVE DOESNT MEAN IT WONT COME BACK...

Nothing is this life is ENEMY PROOF...people will blame you for your situation and there's too...No matter how many times you have fought with them they will abandon you in your greatest battles and even fight against you as if they were your enemy...Just because people profess their love for you don't mean they won't cry for Barabbas, Barabbas, tomorrow, yelling crucify him....knowing this, your elevation will probably lead to your extermination....

The Devil will lay on you something that you don't have to carry...even though evil may have a strong pull it is not strong enough to pull against your no's, it can only pull temporarily, and you can refuse to carry it...somethings you just have to say I am not putting that in my pocket, nope.

There is no prayer, no plea, no pain, no frustration, nothing you will ever do that will stop the testing of you faith and the fiery trials that James talks about. You just have to know that if you faint in the day of adversity then your strength was small or you weren't as strong as you think you were. Zechariah you are thrown into the fires to be purified  seven times.

Genesis 3 Eve's Pain

We don't mean to but we often give to out loved ones what they shouldn't have only later having to deal with the pain that we've caused and the judgment. It is whn we deceive others that it hurts us today and in the future.

Why Didn't You Come To My Rescue....

GOD I am sorry to ask you so please don't be angry with me
Why do you never come to my rescue until someone has made
a mess of me or I have made a mess of things? Because I lack understanding
it seems that you do more ignoring me than loving me.
I can not come up to you but you can come  up to me. When my stepfather was
damaging us why did you ignore us? Why as child did you not protect or defend me.
From the first moment I heard about you I believed that you were real; I believed
that you had given David the strength to be Goliath and that you had shut the mouths
of Lions for Daniel. You sounded like the GOD for me the one that defends his people,
but that's not what I found when I was growing up. You had favorites favorite people,
favorite families, favorite nations, favorite colors and the rest of us should be grateful
for the crumbs.

 

STILL LOOKING FOR SOMETHING GREATER?

IS IT YOU OR DO WE LOOK FOR ANOTHER?
by El Nahtan DaSeer

John in his gospel records that when he saw Jesus he asked is it you or do we look for another?
People are still asking JESUS this question today. Most people are still looking for something that GOD has placed right in front of their face. But still they are constantly looking for another...another husband, another job, another life, another, relationship, another home even another Messiah.
In fact most people become professional lookers and never settle down or settle in to the fact that GOD will send salvation right to their face. They are so constantly looking that they never stop to ask is this it?
Sometimes you spend so much time preparing for something that you don't even recognize it when it comes, even when it's right in front of your face... He came amongst his own and they perceived him not....And JESUS response? My actions will confirm my identity, who I am is the eye opener to the blind, the finder of the lost sheep, the releaser of the chained, restorer to the hearing impaired. Have you come face to face with the miracle maker? Did you recognize him? STILL SEEKING WHAT YOU ALREADY FOUND...John was prepared to keep looking but when he met JESUS the word made him know that he had come to the end of a journey.
To answer you question John, you have found it and need not look for another. For the presence of GOD standing in front of you is the end of a quest.
To know if you have found what you are looking for you must know what you seek...The intereations between the cousins great but greater, the searcher and the finder, the preparer and the on whom he prepared for,

WHEN YOU FIND HIM YOU FIND THE MOMENT OF REST...

The gospel teaches us through John how our relationship with Christ ought to mature, when we find Him we decrease so that HE can increase. those that we have disciple we bring them to JESUS and leave them in the care of the Father.