SERIES: Practice Being Better, Succeed at Being the Best, Say Yes to the  Responsibility to Lead....

START with YOUR GREATEST WEAPON, not your SWORD, not your biceps not your triceps, not even your wide chest, or beautifully sculptured body, but your EARS !

Proverbs Chapter 1

The Proverbs are Wisdom given to the King by GOD and to anyone that may take the responsibility to lead other people or excepts the privilege of being citizens of a kingdom to which GOD calls us to. King Solomon gave simple and practical instructions for people to follow in listening and obeying GOD and honoring the King Jesus!

How Does a man become wise?
He listens (Honors) GOD with fear and Reverence

He trains at being slow to speak and quick to hear (James 4)

First step in gaining wisdom or receiving anything from GOD is the FEAR GOD who teaches us to submit to those in authority which when you are young is your parents (Father and Mother). 

But for a young person (and even those that have a sense of entitlement) they confuse HONOR (GODLY FAVOR) with POPULARITY and FAME. Seeing others honored they think that it is their popularity instead of the GODLY favor that comes as a result of listening to GOD and being obedient to those in authority. 

HONOR is gained by honor given that is why GOD instructs all to begin their lives by 

Honoring HIM and then HONORING your FATHER AND MOTHER. This was not a request but a command and GOD attached a long life promise as a present for a person's obedience. 

Parents, it becomes your responsibility to help your children understand how important it is to listen. We have these books that teach parents how to listen to their children but very little that trains the children to listen to GOD and their parents. Yet, though I started with the young generation LISTENING is the HONOR that is missing out of the Church. We have selective listening we pick and choose. But great listeners become great leaders. Listening is one of the can do's (acts) that fall under humble submission.

v. 9 FROM THIS DISCIPLINE YOU WILL BE POSITIONED FOR GREATNESS...

IF WE DEMONSTRATE (SHOW) GOD THAT WE ARE LISTENING BY PRACTICING WHAT HE HAS TAUGHT OR SAID!

Once GOD knows that HE has trained you to listen then HE can prepare you to speak (when you are trained to listen GOD can prepare you to speak), as HIS instrument and not as excited  your own voice with your own motives. CAN YOU HEAR THE VOICE OF THE SPIRIT ? WHAT DOES IT SOUNDS LIKE?ARE YOU READY FOR GOD TO USE YOU? THEN TRAIN YOURSELF TO SPEAK LESS AND LISTEN MORE. It is then GOD will bring forth  the Spirit of Purpose. In Fact, most people talk themselves out of the will of GOD.

The world is training us with lies making us believe that talking more will get you more and talking great will make you great. But how many of us remove ourselves from the presence of people that need their batteries pulled out, they simply talk too much; in reality most of what they say isn't worth anything. The truth is, LISTENERS are always kept in the crowd, in the know---'talkers' people can't wait until you shut up. The bible in proverbs teaches us that sin comes with many words and that a person should number (limit) how they use their speech. Some of you always say that GOD doesn't answer me but do you shut up and wait for HIM to answer you.
See Exodus 14:14....GOD will fight for you but you will hold your peace---in other words the LORD will defend you when you shut up and stop complaining or attaching your own faulty reasoning behind the experience when you have little to no information to make a righteous interpretation.

Never Confuse Honor with Popularity or Fame...

One of the things that we have to be careful about is not confusing popularity and fame with HONOR and FAVOR one is the accolades of man the other comes from GOD. 

Do You Believe Enough to See Your Dead Arise?
by El Nahtan Ben Da Seer (oblivion)

John Chapter 11

JESUS looks at Mary and Martha and told them and the people of Judea, that had just wanted to kill Him,that they would see the glory of GOD. It is from this passage that I had to ask myself is anything too late for GOD. Just because something looks like its past its time, not with GOD. Sometimes JESUS waits until it is good and stinky, decayed, past the time---the time men have calculated that it could be saves or revives---when he saves and revives; sometimes GOD has to wait until all human hope and capabilities have been exhausted. When everyone has written you off and have placed you in the tombs of 'remembered no more', even though they mourn for you now you soon will be forgotten. But GOD is not finished with you yet 'Bishop'. From death to life and from grace to grace in Christ we are victorious. It's not over until GOD says that it's over. You may have had grave clothes that are now binding you to your state, but GOD's glory is not bound not limited to earthly laws for HE is the creator and decider of every path that men take not matter what the circumstances dictate they must bow to the will of the heavenly FATHER that knows how to get glory out of every situation. You who are the chosen of GOD their is an appointed time in which only righteous feet  will touch the redeemed heaven and earth. Great defender it is so much better your way.
JESUS looked at the disciples and tried to explain to them that Judea like most of this generation have been blinded and live in darkness and now that HE is here they will see a great light. We All have been a victim of seeing in the dark and thinking we have seen it all, Thomas even made the comment to return to Judea was going back for them to kill him and made the comment let is go back and die with him. What seemed like a noble comment still held true to Thomas' name doubting Thomas, and I have been him many times thinking that I knew the end of a matter; when on reality all I had to do was believe what the  LORD had told me. Trying to understand heavenly response with earthly understanding is to be wrong all the time.

Revelation 2:20 YUK

Unveiling Revelations

By Nathaniel Akers

In the Book of Revelation, God reveals to His servant John

One of the primary criticisms of Jezebel given in Revelation was that she misled people into sexual immorality and to eat food sacrificed to idols. (Revelation 2:20) It’s no wonder the focus has been on the first of those two. Sex sells, after all, and not many people have to worry about temptation to idol worship in modern America
Food sacrificed to idols created considerable problems in the early church, even though Christians did not participate in the sacrifices themselves. At the council of Jerusalem, one of the four things the apostles determined they should tell new Gentile Christians to avoid was “food sacrificed to idols.” (Acts 15:29) Paul devoted three chapters of 1 Corinthians to the subject. Clearly it was considered a most important topic.

Most of Paul’s discussion addressed the freedom believers had in Christ and when to decline exercising that freedom for the sake of another person’s conscience. He began by acknowledging that idols were nothing, there being only one real God. Therefore, eating meat that had been sacrificed to an idol had no significance in terms of one’s faith. (1 Corinthians 8:4-6)

However, before their conversion, some believers had worshiped those idols and might find any kind of association with their old lifestyle either offensive to their new faith or a temptation to return to the old. Paul recommended shunning such meals in order to avoid causing problems for these new believers. (1 Corinthians 8:7-13) In chapter 10, he further elaborated by suggesting that when a Christian was invited to dinner, he should simply not ask where the meat came from. Just quietly enjoy the meal. However, if someone pointed out that the food had been sacrificed to an idol, that would be an indication that the person might have a problem with it, and you should decline to eat it. (1 Corinthians 10:23-30)

Food Sacrificed to idol:

1. represented the old practices [the unchanged mind and practices of the old man (carnal man- carnal mind)] that worshiped things other than the true and living GOD...stay away from you old practices of worshiping what GOD despises; food prepared contrary to GOD's dietary laws. 

Paul’s treatment of the subject raises a few questions. In 8:10, he referred to “eating in an idol’s temple.” Why would a Christian ever be in a pagan temple, eating or otherwise? Also, if eating food sacrificed to idols was nothing, why did the apostles place such great emphasis on abstaining from it, and why did Jesus reprimand those in both Pergamum (Revelation 2:14) and Thyatira for the practice? Was Paul establishing criteria different from the rest of the church?

As might be expected, there is more to this food than is readily apparent. Several types of meals made use of food sacrificed to idols, and not all were harmless fellowship. The meals ranged from simple dinners in private homes to lavish banquets and public religious rituals. Even private dinner parties had the potential to involve idol worship in some form.

“Eat anything sold in the meat market without raising questions of conscience.” (1 Corinthians 10:25)

The evidence suggests that there were two kinds of meat available when a person went shopping. Varro, writing about husbandry in the first century B.C., identified two different destinations for cattle. Some were intended for normal butcher shops and others were “being fattened for the public sacrifices.” (Varro, Rerum Rusticarum 2.1) Butchers who bought cattle for normal sale were more concerned with the health of the animal. “Those who buy for the altar do not usually stipulate for health in their victims.” (Rerum Rusticarum 2.5) Though it wasn’t directly stated, meat offered to idols and resold in the marketplace would be less expensive, but there was also less assurance of quality.   

2. These sacrifices apparently did end up in the marketplace, sold at a discount and the proceeds considered part of the income for the priest or for the temple. STARVING THOSE IN THE PRIESTHOOD AND REJECTING GOD'S LEVITICUS CODE.

Emoluments having shares in the sacrifices: “Likewise they remit to holders of honorable offices, or of posts as prophet or scribe, or of other sacred offices in the temples, the arrears owed in the temples for the emoluments demanded on certain occasions.”  

WE will give to pagans, demons, the fallen what belongs to the prophet, priest, or King.

Sometimes it is better to not know where the food came from.Paul believed that the sacrifice did not make the meat any better or worse than other food. He advocated not even asking where the meat came from. This seems to be the type of food intended in 1 Corinthians 8, the discounted meat sold to the public after it had been sacrificed.

Eating foods sacrificed to idols was almost like a public consent. Stop publicly consenting to things that you know are not GOD.

Unfortunately for early Christians, meals often had overt connections to idol worship, and this was the type of meat that concerned James and the other apostles. Public sacrifice to pagan gods usually involved a banquet. The feast was an integral part of the ritual and was often spoken of in ancient literature. ( Memorable Deeds and Sayings 2.2.9; 2.4.5; Ovid, Fasti 2.512-532; 6.169-182; Livy, The History of Rome 25.12; to name a few.Religious implications spilled into private meals as well. Describing the way a family sacrifice should be made...

Eating sacrificed meat meant consuming what is offered as a sign of solidarity, stop taking what the Devil has offered your appetite.

It also meant taking the practices of what you have been taught. RITUALS AND CEREMONIES NOT TAUGHT BY GOD. Religious implications spilled into private meals as well. Describing the way a family sacrifice should be made, Cato the Elder spoke of the importance of the meal. “After the ceremony is over,” he instructed, “consume the offering on the spot at once.”

NOTE: In the book of Enoch GOD is very upset that Semaja (the leader of the run away angels, who ran to human women out of lust) and the other run away's have come and taught mankind all kinds of seducing and destructive arts. 

Clearly such a meal carried religious implications a little different from simply getting together with friends. Added to that was the fact that many dinner gatherings were held in temples.

Banqueting halls were built for religious banquets and used for feast celebrations of all kinds, not unlike the way church reception halls are used for things like wedding receptions or anniversaries today.The idea of meals being shared with a god permeated most of Roman society. Simple dinner invitations often alluded to the presence of gods. “The god calls you to a banquet,” read one such invitation. (P.Köln I 57) In another, Chaeremon invited his guests to “dinner at the table of the lord Sarapis,” a Greek-Egyptian god. (P.Oxy. I 110) To the Roman mind, every time a meal was prepared, it commemorated a relationship to the gods.

Paul and James were aware of these other aspects of food sacrificed to idols. “Flee from idolatry,” Paul wrote. (1 Corinthians 10:14) One who ate the sacrificial food in the context of worship participated in the altar to which the food was sacrificed. (1 Corinthians 10:18) Which meant association with demons.“The sacrifices of pagans are offered to demons, not to God, and I do not want you to be participants with demons.” (1 Corinthians 10:20).The term for these sacrificial offerings was eidolothutos. The history of this word, however, indicates nuances of meaning slightly different in the first century than the modern meaning. he Latin word for “sacrifice,” sacrificare, was not limited to the act of slaughtering an animal. It referred to any act by which something was put into the possession of a god. (Greek and Roman Animal Sacrifice: Ancient Victims, Modern Observers, pp. 92-93)On the surface, Paul appears to have taken two views on the subject. On the one hand, food offered to idols was nothing and could be eaten with a clean conscience, as long as it did not offend others. On the other hand, eating sacrificial meat was participating in the altar of demons. Underlying his comments in 1 Corinthians is the implication that motivation matters. Many considerations might prompt Christians to participate in various meals with their pagan friends or associates. It might be good for business to network with others. It might enhance social standing and prestige to be seen with the “right” people. Some might have craved the entertainment of Roman banquets.

Your participation in the rituals and ceremonies of those that worship demons and are against GOD. It is clear that the teachings, rituals, and belief was at the center of what GOD was talking about in the bible in the sacrifices of thins sacrificed to  idols. TACID APPROVAL

The term “food offered to idols” also appears in 1 Corinthians 8:1,1 Corinthians 8:4,1 Corinthians 8:7,1 Corinthians 8:10 and 1 Corinthians 10:19 (some manuscripts include it in 1 Corinthians 10:28 ). At Corinth, Paul had plunged into the pagan world in an attempt to bring them the message of Christ. Probably most of his converts were acquainted with the practice of using the leftover portions of a sacrifice for sale or celebration. It is not difficult to imagine a problem emerging as to whether a Christian was doing wrong by the public or private use of food that had been devoted to a pagan deity.

Can a persons faith be put on display by what he or she eats or drinks whether in private or in publc, it is the practice that GOD is concerned with, the rituals was are counter intuitive to everything instructed in Leviticus and practice first hand by JESUS CHRIST.

Causing a weaker brother to sin. In 1 Corinthians 8:4-13, Paul clarifies the teaching on this subject. First, he says that eating meat offered to an idol is not immoral, because “an idol is nothing at all.” An idol is an inanimate object. “Food,” he says, “does not bring us near to God; we are no worse if we do not eat, and no better if we do.” The meat itself is amoral. However, there is more to consider, namely the brother with a weak conscience. Some believers, especially those with a background of idol worship, were still very sensitive concerning this issue and considered it morally wrong to eat meat sacrificed to idols. Under no circumstances, Paul says, should a believer encourage another believer to violate his conscience. To the pure, all things are pure (Titus 1:15), but to one with a weak conscience, meat taken from pagan temples was spiritually defiled. It would be better never to eat meat again than to cause a believer to sin against his conscience.

Why is it that the deepest revelation comes at a time when a person is experiencing great personal persecution. There is something about intense human suffering that opens the soul to divine understanding. GOD in HIS perfect timing rescues the psyche with hope even though the body might remain in peril or trouble. There is always a breaking before the making it is when this process is completed that GOD begins to use what's inside. Like the cracking of an egg the outer shell is only the protection for what's inside. Treasures lie within the earthen vessel. Revelation therefore is not just a future hope it is the 'crescendo' of GOD's plans for humanity.Paradise is no longer a garden, but a kingdom; Man is not just man but a priest; time is no longer limited but eternal, and JESUS is not just a risen savior but a conquering KING! 
Revelation carries a double blessing (Duo-Baracah):
1. reading it aloud to give HOPE to the believes, those suffering for the sake of the gospel.
2.To those who do what they hear in this prophecy
Take the iron of righteous to your wrinkles of sin . For the churches in Revelation represents the spirit of the people. Even though GOD offers mankind a eternal kingdom, Christ's takes great effort in making sure John records the results of HIS disapproval for the action that get's churches( a person) removed from the lamb's book of life and their lights put out. There is hope for the future and also responsibility for the believers to maintain there believers status. This directly contradicts the once saved always saved doctrine (see Ezekiel 33). Revelation therefore written for the believer to find hope in the coming kingdom. Stand firm in a glorious hope and a victorious end. Knowing that CHRIST has conquered all should encourage the saints to hold on to a steadfast faith. One day those clouds won't be a rainstorm they will be the coming of the LORD. The curtain will be pulled back and all the world will see HIM. And even the ones that pierced HIM  will behold the coming of the King. No longer these corrupt earthly governments and rulers to a righteous king. No longer tainted with the bloodlines of earthly kings but a divine spiritual bloodline of Christ.
Today most of us have got the church part perfected, the shout, the dance, the praise, the worship in song even our giving and our labor, but where we fail as the church and even as individuals is in PATIENT ENDURANCE. The staying power when things may not play out like we like. The ability to do GOD's will when the only reward is the coming kingdom and a future hope. In the age of prosperity we want it now. Becoming an instant, microwave society where there is no such thing as delayed satisfaction but instant gratification. I am not in authority to criticize, but a observation I can make based on the word of GOD. Our best is yet to come don't become ENAMORED by this world and the lies and seductions that it presents. For instance owning a wonderful home is great but the scriptures teach us that in Christ's FATHERS's house (our GOD) their are many mansions. Just remember we have to be what the Son can take home to His Father as a bride. And let us not be fooled JESUS will say to those who do not follow His commands -I can not take you to my Father  for you have worked iniquity.

Better to be Punished than to be Destroyed....

It Is Better To Be Punished Than to be Destroyed.....

Isaiah 10:25 

The Lord Will Punish Assyria

24 The Sovereign Lord Almighty says to his people who live in Zion, “Do not be afraid of the Assyrians, even though they oppress you as the Egyptians used to do. 25 In only a little while I will finish punishing you, and then I will destroy them.

God's people are being punished for their rejection of HIM and the laws and direction the LORD has instructed them to take. GOD is so upset with HIS people that Isaiah in the previous chapter records that GOD has hidden himself from HIS people, which goes to the existence of those that belong to HIM. IN the chapters that preceded GOD uses the prophet to illustrate, prophesy, tell, direct, and foretell that a great punishment is overdue for these rebellious once favored of the LORD. Fear can never adequately describe the horrors that they will face from the Assyrian horded who the LORD wills like a tool. But then the tool started thinking that it was more important than the hand that willed it. GOD in his anger to chasten his own by the hand of those fierce and mean tells his people that the time of fear and dread will end, but that HE will destroy those that plot the destruction of the ones HE has chosen but corrected. If we glance at the record that GOD has told Isaiah to record then we see that GOD is nothing to be taken lightly, that HE is serious about HIS laws and ordinances, and even more HE hates pride and arrogance. In fact it was the boasting and the pride that caused HIM to destroy Assyria. So just because you win a battle doesn't mean that you will enjoy the spoil. Never forget that GOD grants victory over enemies. IT is GOD that is due the respect, praise, and honor---and HIM alone. To praise the tool and not the hand is a prescription for disaster as Assyria will soon find out. Don't ever think that GOD will use you to correct another and not correct you---you better hope that your pride has not puffed you up so that it is better to be punished than destroyed.

In my arrogance GOD has humbled me to where I have slept and lived in the dust. IN retrospect one could ague that GOD has turned his back on me (hidden himself from me). Yet, I see that GOD has been merciful to me in not destroying me and allowing me to see his correction. The truth is that GOD has been long suffering with my rebellion and bad choices, though HE has chastened me ----HE has chastened the one HE loves. I see HIS punishment as HIS love and it's better to be punished than destroyed. I am guilty before HIM, even of death. That's right I should be on death row right now and all the demons in hell would be awaiting my arrival----yet GOD has spoken grace over my life and mercy for my failures. I AM  FACE DOWN BEFORE HIM ---IN ADORATION!!!!!

Every time you see anything from me I urge even demand that you go after the indwelling HOLY SPIRIT of ACTS that is a free gift from GOD to all those that come to HIM out of a pure heart with right motives and have confessed that CHRIST IS LORD! Once God seals you---you will have the excellency of HIS SPIRIT in your earthen vessel. And you will be a SPIRITUAL Vessel for HIM to use. You will be the tool and HE the hand, but never forget that it is HIS hand that wills the tool.

So if GOD has corrected you then you know HE will restore you. IT is GOD that tell you to not be afraid though the enemy that defeated you still oppresses you. Assyria represents any enemy that has gained carnal victory because of our spiritual failure. You may feel defeated right now BUT GOD tells you head up, shoulders back because HE will once again come to your aide. HE had to punish you so HE wouldn't have to destroy you, but HE wants you to trust HIM again. Assyria represents the mind that do not recognize the spiritual center of it's universe; it believes that it is it's own spiritual center and strength. GOD will send to you what you have been calling for and when it comes you are not going to like it. IT is a destructive and undisciplined mind; the Assyrian mind was the mind that believed in the formed over the unformed; materialistic over the spiritual. Israel was being attacked by those who possessed the minds that they were morphing into. They were spiritually becoming the formed, undisciplined, materialistic mind and that's who GOD sent to correct them----yet seeing the end result of that mindset which was pride, arrogance, and boasting--- it led to destruction. Fast loot, easy plunder and the Assyrian came running with their weapons drawn. Be careful that the things that you gather don't become bait for the enemy to come knocking. Carnal opulence is not a good indicator of soul wellness. You can be favored by things and rejected by GOD. 

When the Hurt are the Ones that are Hurting...

A Talk with GOD and the emotions that flooded my mind after HE stopped hugging me...

When we are hurting, though we might not recognize that we do it, but we project our pain to everyone. In Fact, many of us are so angry we want others to feel out pain on purpose. Showing weakness is not an option so many of us never really can tell others that we  are damaged.  We over compensate with too much strength----since love is seen as a weakness we are afraid to give it away.  We hide it in a stronghold which is a place that is a cave in a mountain where you feel protected in isolation nothing can come in and nothing can get out. Anyone that stays in darkness too long will eventually surrender to the voices of his madness---the longer that you stay in the louder it becomes until it is all you know and it begins to drawn out the voice of  GOD. ( Noah).
YOU MUST COME OUT AND COME DOWN!!!
How many of you are hiding because you are hurting. What if you healing was in the same place that you where hurt? What if he knife in your back was from GOD? We run from GOD thinking that HE is the one causing all of our pain when in reality HE is operating on us attaching himself to us so that HE might seem on our back to have our back. So that when HE finishes with you you will do greater, be better, and stand stronger for longer.
The rainbow which became a sign in the days of Noah represented that GOD had calculated the weakness of man and HE would never allow man to cause HIM to drawn everything in it's sorrows . Instead HE would give everyone the opportunity for  being saved after being warned, and making a way of escape.

John chapter

The bible tells us that Nazareth became offended at Jesus wisdom and teachings. So GOD began to speak to me (and maybe you) about the "OFFENDED MIND". What emotions do the spirit of offense bring:
1. the spirit of offense brings a "CLOSED MIND", when a person begins to shut down on listening and receiving. They no longer want to hear any thing you have to say. The dialogue has ended when people get offended. Proverbs says that a 'fool' despises wisdom and knowledge. Talking to someone who has shut down is like teaching a rock to walk. A closed mind means that nothing can get in. IGNORING YOU AND IGNORING GOD becomes the attitude of a closed mind. When a person ignores GOD they refuse to hear the spirit man, they have overpowered the willingness of their spirit. GOD has a response to those that ignore HIS WISDOM....Proverbs 1:26...so when you get in trouble. I will laugh at you when terror strikes when it comes on you like a storm bringing the fierce winds of trouble and you are in pain and misery. Then you will call for wisdom, but I will not answer (I will ignore your pleas for help even as yo have ignored my (Wisdom) cries to teach you the knowledge of the LORD.

Prayer: God forgive me for turning from wisdom and knowledge, knowing that you had to ignore me for my correction. Thank you for the blood of JESUS that restored me.

Chapter 2 of Proverbs verses 9 begins to contrast with a open mind and a listening spirit the opening the soul and guides the actions of the carnal being. Obediently desiring to listen and follow GOD. This is what Proverbs says: "if you listen to me, you will know what is right and just and fair, You will know what you should do. You will become wise and your knowledge will give you pleasure your insight and understanding will protect you and understanding will protect you from doing what is wrong. They will keep you away from people who stir up trouble by what they say.; those who have abandoned a righteous life to live in the darkness of sin those who find pleasure in doing wrong and who enjoy senseless evil, unreliable people who you cannot trusted."

2. This offended mind can be a violent mind. Acted out it not only despises your words it (the offended mind) begins to loathe your spirits hunger for the wisdom of GOD and the authority of that wisdom to rule your life. The carnal mind despises the spirits attempt to control and guide the soul. It begins to fight back. It is not wanting to heat the wisdom of GOD that the carnal mind turns violent and seeks to silence the wisdom. THEY WANT JESUS TO BE SUBDUED. In the spiritual language we use the term QUENCH the spirit to mean to stop or stifle it, also like throwing water on the fire. In fact, they seek carnal solutions for their spiritual deafness. Just like the carnal likes to fight the spiritual, the people wanted to lay hands on JESUS but HIS hour had not yet come. Not only do they slam it against opportunity. Not allowing WISDOM to come in means not allowing success to get out.
a. the rejection of the moral and the divine law
b.They didn't want their wrong to be exposed
c. Truth Hurts, causes injury, makes uncomfortable
d. to cause dislike, anger, or vexation
e. to make obsolete is to cause another to sin and fall

Transgression begins with a statue a code, a law the is violated---people can not say that they di not understand the expectation of GOD. When a moral standard is brought to the people they had a habit of demoralizing the messenger and attacking them physically.
 let's take a closer look at the word Offended:

OFFEND, OUTRAGE, AFFRONT, INSULT mean to cause hurt feelings or deep resentment. OFFEND need not imply an intentional hurting but it may indicate merely a violation of the victim's sense of what is proper or fitting.  hoped that my remarks had not offended her  OUTRAGE implies offending beyond endurance and calling forth extreme feelings.  outraged by their accusations AFFRONT implies treating with deliberate rudeness or contemptuous indifference to courtesy.  deeply affronted by his callousness  INSULT suggests deliberately causing humiliation, hurt pride, or shame.  insulted every guest at the part

Sometime I pout like a baby, but I am not gonna get mad with my beautiful heavenly Father over no earthly rust and steel. Not gonna miss my time with my Father over no bike. What ever the LORD decides that I need is what I have today. LORD please forgive me for the thoughts that come into my mind that I must take out. I will tell HIM that I am hurt and has enough I will return to blessing HIS name I have wasted enough time and I have made HIM second to all this foolishness. NO MORE ENOUGH ENOUGH!!!!!!